Happy Thanksgiving - No you can't come home

To You,

I was surprised when you called, and it threw me off for a minute, wasn't aware it was you at first then it clicked.
 I had wondered if you would be able to call today somehow.  So it was good to talk to you but it sounded like NOTHING'S CHANGED.

It's like slapping a puppy to have to say no, you can't come home yet. No, I'm not dropping the tpo. No, I'm not ready because you're not ready. 

I'm sorry for you that your children won't speak to you.  We had a nice day, a great dinner, and beautiful weather.  I hope you called your mom, she deserves better.

When I re-read some of this it is just so much sadder . . . every day I wonder how I'll go on without you and if you'll ever come home, and if I can make it, and how awful it would be if you didn't.

Maybe you'll be able to call at Christmas.

Please, please get it.

Love, Me